A long time

Well I cant believe its been so long since I posted. Things are more level, but Im still worrying about things.
I think of Rosie most days, they lost her on New Years Eve. They took a puppy which I hope has helped with their big loss. I thank god every day nearly for all I have. I have been worried about Fred. He has been acting really strange lately, Im not sure if there is a girley around in season. It doesnt affect Boo the same.
The ou is ok, last assignment mark was 71%. This one is proving to be really hard to write, and its history so its right up my street, what Ive written today is a lot. I have done well today. I need to go back over it and ask myself how my reply answers the question, to see if I can tidy it up. Then the references and the Biblio.
Tomorrow Im hoping to get outside for a run, weather permitting, and I need to get a gp appointment to review meds but I hate going.
Today I had a rethink about the car...I think instead of I want, I need to think what we can have with what we can afford and not be so greedy.
Gym tonight, chest and back, not too bad. Eaten too much rubbish lately. Need to either go to a group, or try really hard at home

ok

things have settled a bit- and I dont know how to feel about it.

I was so worked up about Rosie since we found out her news and since she died things have settled. I dont want to feel settled about it, its a terrible, sad thing and I want to mourn her. Im still worried about Fred.

I hate this stage of swinging inbetween up and down Still not quite finished assignment.Not confident about the subject and feel like Im blagging my way through it. Know that a pass is 40% and i'll probably get that but I wanted to apply myself. Just getting through.

It happened

Well poor Rosie died yesterday. Bless her and her family, gone too soon like so many.
We were out at friends when I got the message. I was only there out of duty, I wanted to stay at home as I'd felt strange all day. I didnt say anything but we came home around 11 that night to get settled before the New years Eve fireworks and I read the full message then. Few tears but the tablets are stopping most of my reaction.
Woke up this morning feeling calmer, I know the family will be so upset now but I found out they decided to have one of crazy Daisys pups, a boy this time, so Im sure he will bring a little light into their dark moments.

The family came for dinner which was fine, I just dont do great around company at the mo.
Well tonight Ive been using new laptop to sort out course work as I will have lots of ironing this week and ive got to send it by the 7th. First part done, second and hardest part rough draft but wont get to look at it for a couple of days.

Fred still concerns me and Im sure will continue to do so, I cant help it.
Off to settle down for the night.